You are welcome for the reply, my pleasure to help people and try to support them!
Besides you do not like it you are determined to join because there is nothing decent you can do to earn some money as i can understand...it is a big change, you will go somewhere far-far away and maybe earn some good money. The social pressure, i fully understand that, i think of myself that i am socially-awkward or maybe sometimes antisocial...places that are full of people i do not know/or i know make we feel scared, anxious, can't find my place and finally i want to evade somewhere where is peace and solitude. I can handle it for a while but i am constantly thinking of going home. Like you Notchy i have to bear it and carry on, even if i am unhappy a very big part of my time.