02-28-2010, 01:28 PM
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yay, i cleaned the toilets. yay, i'm doing laundry. yay, i cooked yesterday. yay, i have a million other things to do. :((((
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03-02-2010, 11:12 PM
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#22
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can't talk cant share cant speak cant write
i hold most of it in, even here.
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03-10-2010, 08:13 PM
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#23
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mix of feelings.
feeling good at work. i enjoy the job, things are going well there, and i even feel happy at times. during a few of these times today i noticed just how different it felt - relaxed, not anxious about things, and it made me realize i must really be running my body thru the mill the rest of the time. how normal feeling worried & depressed has become to me. how abnormal it is for me to not feel bad.
hubby & i are spending more time talking at night, i did tell him how i had considered living apart recently. he took it ok, didn't seem surprised, but did tell me he didn't even want to think about it, he'd never want us to. i don't know if we ever will really be OK, though. i wonder if the part of me that loved him has died for good, because i don't feel that way about him, even as things get better.. .
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03-29-2010, 09:46 AM
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as of now, our relationship has been getting better. when i get anxious, he's there for me. i'd get so frustrated that he could be so insensitive about things, but i'm beginning to think it may be more of a laid-back attitude about everything, not necessarily that he doesn't care. when i freak out, he's there to tell me it's not a big deal, and i know it usually isn't. he's a really good guy in a lot of ways. i still feel the draw to leave, but the possibility of staying is getting stronger.
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04-22-2010, 09:38 PM
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#25
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tired. working a lot.
feeling restless.
lonely.
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04-24-2010, 07:27 PM
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more work changes. i wish things would get settled and normal.
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06-27-2010, 09:36 PM
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hi, here i am, in case anyone was curious. not doing well. what does it matter anyway?
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07-01-2010, 03:12 PM
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#28
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well, got transferred from the department i was happy in. lack of work. :(
this one is ok, but i was really starting to like the other one a lot.
and now this dept. looks like it may be running out of work, too. from the work i've seen lately, it seems a good possibility.
and hubby still does not have a permanent job. .. he got a temporary part time one, i don't know how long that will last.
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07-01-2010, 03:19 PM
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i would never admit this to my husband or say it to anyone, but i feel OK posting anonymously. i am pretty disappointed in him and his job situation. when i talk to him, i always try to focus on the fact that we're not in debt, we're squeaking by with our savings (though that is dwindling), but i am really starting to feel more burdened by this. it was fine for awhile, but it is really getting harder to feel ok with it.
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07-05-2010, 08:52 PM
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people can really be jerks. i try to be kind, and i get jerkiness back. i don't know why that makes ME feel bad, u know, it really shouldn't. i'm not the one being a jerk.
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