wow RTG. that last part hit me right in the heart like a knife. i feel so bad for her, to know that she was doing the right thing and getting help, and trying all options. and then all it did was make her feel more hopeless that she couldnt get better. wow, that is extremely sad. but i hope i dont make you angry, but if someone tries EVERYTHING to make themselves feel better, and i mean everything, and it still doesnt help, i dont blame her for killing herself. in that case, its like a terminal illness and there is no point in going on if all you are going to be is miserable for the rest of your life. again, i dont want to piss you off, but i understand why she did it. i would do the same thing.