sar

I'm at work right now, and I really need someone to talk to. Going to work is a huge trigger for my depression. I just started taking my medication yesterday, and it doesn't start working for two weeks. I don't know what to do. Being here makes me feel so hopeless and frustrated. I feel like I have no control. I feel like crap because I know there are a lot of people unemployed, and here I am complaining, but I can't help myself.

People take advantage of me here, I don't have anyone to talk to so I sit here alone and by myself and worst of all everyone talks behind everyone else's back. I'm so self conscious around everyone here. I stay up all night long with anxiety the nights before work.

What can I do to feel better at work?

zomg

SAR:
I am / was in a similar situation, but handed in my notice today.

Although I am in the lucky situation of being able to move back with supportive parents, I tried to stick this job out for 2 years before coming to this decision.

I believe that you should not stay somewhere that makes you unhappy. A bad environment will hurt your self esteem and make you feel like you can't find something else, but if you can make yourself apply for other work, you WILL find somewhere else. And other places ARE better.

Looking back at my experience here, I can see that although some of the incidents that made me upset were genuinely bad, I may have felt more affected by them than is proportionate or rational. Depression is a mental illness, and things that other workers brush off can have a much bigger effect on you than is reasonable.

In someways you are lucky that your environment is what is making you depressed - it's something you can change. I feel a bit better just for having resigned, even though I'm still working my notice.

I would advise you to find other work, and to arrange your start and end dates so that you have an affordable length of time just dossing around your house, getting your head back together. A few weeks might help.

Good luck, and I feel for you.

Mea Culpa

Find some way to vent, be it a place where you can relax and clear your head, or a friend you can count on. If you do not have anyone you can talk to, there is always your doctor, or therapist. If you cannot afford a Dr. or therapist, then there is always free hotlines, and websites like this one.

The most you can do around other people is to try to ignore it. Don't let them make you feel horrible. Of course that is easier said than done. I get stepped on at work too, and I just bite the bullet and keep going. If you feel it would do any good, you could always report them to your supervisor.

Good luck.

Peace and health.

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sar

My therapist told me it would be best if I quit as well, and I was going to but I got scared. I'm a college student, I don't have money, and it is a good paying job. My boyfriend dosen't have a job, and I don't want to be stuck in this town. I applied for a new job, and I thought I did a great interview. I didn't get the job though, which made me feel worse about myself. I just want a break, but i can't afford it. I think if I have to spend one more day here I'm going to combust.

My mom knows I'm depressed, and she thinks that I just don't like working because I am depressed, but the truth is, going to work is a key factor in making me depressed. My dad had three jobs when he was my age and thinks I'm weak for not being able to hold one. They are both so damn materialistic too. Neither of them like their jobs, but they do things that they hate every day so that you can make money and buy THINGS. Sure, things are nice. But it doesn't make me happy. I haven't been unemployed once since I was 14. I even held three jobs myself at one point, and I've been working here for about three years. And all to no avail, because look at me now. I am 20, and depressed.

I'm scared they won't accept me if I quit- or worse, I will go nowhere with myself because I can't afford school. I'm just so confused and frustrated.