Every time I try something new to move forward with my pain something else happens to stop me. Every time I get organised in my head, and decide to do stuff.. it hurts more or I have a bad night.
I know it isn't really, but sometimes it feels like a big conspiracy to make things crappy for me.
Sometimes I just wonder what the hell I can do? What can I do to make all this better? What can I do to make it hurt less, or to cope with it better?
And that's it.. there's no answer. No one has any answers.