This may seem weird but here i go..
My names Alex im 25 yrs old Male from England. I work with computers i go down the gym 5-7 days a week so im active. Until recently..
ever since ive been young i have had a very imaginative mind, when i watch films or listen to music or do anything that seems to spark abnormal day to day things my mind seems to absorb the information very clearly its unusual.
This is odd but after reading about how the mind works im starting to think my mind is subconsciously making decisions and ideas and filling my mind with thoughts that wont go away.
Thursday last week I was asked if you would like to watch this new film Avatar that has recently come out at one of the 3D Max Cinemas, so I said yeah sure I haven't got much else to do today.
Now I never wish I went there, the film was very awesome but my mind has completely taken over my thoughts this imaginative world and fantasy of the Nar'vi has made my life hell. I cant control whats happening to me im getting every depression symptom I have found so far and im getting worred I feel sick.
I dont want to work, sleep, eat think of anything else but this Film??? what has happened to me.
Im trying to understand myself and I think this film has a “life” that my mind wants to live and does not care about ANYTHING I live for now.
I cant fully explain it.
This is not a mild depression I have suffered depression a lot in my life due to violence when I was younger (father always hitting etc. I was apparently hard to up-bring when I was young but thats not my thought. I cant remember anything)
Im at breaking point I cry a lot I cant sleep, and IF I see or hear anything to do with this film such as an advert or anything that relates to this new Avatar film my mind goes totally emotional and I feel horrible. Its not normal I cannot try to ignore it, I can be watching tv I feel normal and the advert comes up BANG my mind completely thrown off course and I have NO control over my feelings and this would last for a few hours and slowly disappear.
Im not going to take drugs, or drink or do anything stupid to try and dampen the pain. I have control over that at least but I do not know what to do.
You might enjoy reading this or find it funny but this is a REAL problem and I imagine the future of people may suffer the same with all this alternative better life films, its false and dangerous to sensitive minds like mine.
Its weird but I cannot help think I dont belong here...
please help, professional opinions.
Excuse my typing I dont have the energy to correct it.