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and welcome to TTL.
There seems to be a lot going on and you are agitated-rightfully so. I am glad you have been able to express yourself here,because really there is NO reason why you should be on your own through this.
Divorce is never easy...
. My parents got divorced when I was very young and my dad was very abusive. I don't remember ever having a hug from my mum or the words,'I love you'. I don't really blame my mum though,because I think she just didn't know?
I am a parent now and I am having to learn to say those words and hug my own children. I found it hard to trust or believe other people really care. I,in fact,expect them to leave me real quick,so I can somehow relate to what you are going through
I will agree that you talk to the counsellors and see how they can help you? You have to try and exhaust ALL options available to you. You are worth it! Remember your life is your own in a sense. You can make it beautiful,honey
. It is hard as I am finding it myself,but you have to keep fighting and believing that there is hope for YOU and you deserve happiness too irrespective of what is happening or has happened or will yet happen. No matter how hard you try to be strong or nice,things happen and that is why you have to accept and like yourself first. None of this is your fault.
Friends...sometimes they don't stick around when you need them unfortunately and that is really hard
. Keep trying to be you and one day you will find people who really do care about you for you,not because of what they can get off you.
Are there hobbies you have you can engage in? A sport? Invest in yourself,you are worth it!
Please keep talking and don't be afraid of venting. Emotions are normal
and everyone deserves support when they are hurting...