I wish I would die right this second because I can't take living life anymore. I want to be dead so badly because I'm nothing but a horrible and terrible person on the inside and out. I wish I could have been a better person but I'm honestly not.

Why do you say that?

It sounds to me like you are your worst judge. What in the world could make you such a horrible person? Why do you deserve death as a sentence upon yourself? If anything, I would say that you are likely a horrible judge on yourself and you probably don't deserve to feel anywhere near as you say.

Peace and courage.

And what if death doesn't change anything? What if you had to fix this first?

I really wish I was dead.

napy666~I'm truly sorry you're hurting so much. Death doesn't change a dang thing;for yourself. Life each day;it's a gift. Love with all your heart;only you can give it away~freely. Cheerish each breath;some aren't as lucky to do that. Give your kindness;as it'll be returned~eventually. I don't think you are a terrible/horrible person dear. What I think is this. You're hurting inside/outside & you need someone/people to stop, listen & let you open up about what's hurting you so badly. We are here for you! Don't let the outside world "ruin" who you are;deep inside. It's not easy & I for one understand & know that pain/suffering/feeling. Let the people here be your supporting "life~line." All you need to do...is post. We'll be here for you;always.

I am tired of guys hurting me. No guy will give me a chance. They all think I am transgender when I am not.

napy666~You will find a guy, that will believe in you, be there for you, as well as care for you. We are here for you dear.

I hope so because I think it won't ever happen.

Sometimes, the best things come along, when we're least expecting them too. Just keep being true to yourself, the rest will(eventually)fall into place dear.