my epiphany
well i guess there are three things i would like to discuss here...
1.) who remembers me? when i was first here? and what hope i did have.. even when i was at my worst? my gold coast tour.. yeah thats next week.. we leave monday i probably wont get on much..if at all..so just know ill miss y'all and il tlk 2 u soon
2.) now that its come..what hope do i have now? i feel lost..alone..without a direction..my depression is hitting hard now that i realize that..because i spent past 6 months fighting for the chance to go..fighting to be healthy strong enough to play..and i was... but now ive realized 6 months all down the drain by a week sunday...
3.) if y'all remember me as the whiney kid who was heartbroken.. i guess i hope uve seen me matured cuz if eel different..but im still depressed... but i feel better...different..and i have made the same mistakes as i used to..but im fighting it and gritting my teeth...sometimes its worht sucking up my pride and griding my teeth and going through with it.
thanks for taking the time to read this... it means alot to me
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They can take away the jewelry,
strip me of the fancy clothes.
Put me in a dirty subway,
with nowhere to go.
Long as somebody hears me,
long as somebody cares.
I will always sing my song,
if somebody's there.
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