'Tug of war and my minds like clash of the Titans, thoughts contrast so there's layers to my writin' Royce da 5"9 - layers

I get constant battles with my mind, mainly anxiety triggering about friends leaving, getting attacked, getting trapped, losing friends etc but I also get thoughts at work to harm myself, basically any risk I see and it's like a battle and reasoning with myself to not do what I'm thinking. I'll improve sometime and you'll see my upbeat side in my posts... Just wouldn't wait round for it anytime soon, it's just all layers of emotions that's slowly crushing me

"But it's my life, guess I'm stuck in it, sometimes I just want to be normal like them other kids" Joe budden - runaway

I realised I'm responsible for myself, drinking constantly won't solve anything, it won't make me anything , I wish I had a sane mind like others but it's the cards I'm dealt with and I must overcome I guess