I see how wound up I was before the small mania. And it took my son getting put in the hospital and me losing control and not being able to help to give me the nudge into the hostile aggressive mania. And dealing with two sons gong through major depression. But now I'm getting used to the lithium still, things are much calmer.at first I was super sleepy, and still walking around stores buying things for the house, fixing things, taking apart appliances and give them a serious cleaning. So I talk to the psychiatrist, because I was worried about all the money I was spending on my projects. He suggested a bump up in the lithium. It didn't really help. still insomnia, still waking up at 2 to clean the house, and just not stopping. I painted the living room windows( just 2) cause I was positive people were looking in. And huge mental fog, huge fast weight gain. My regular doc checked my levels, the lithium was 1.2 and thyroid was 7.3. So we took the lithium down and notch and I started Synthroid, for my thyroid. So it's supposed to take 2-4 weeks to have an effect. Doc says it should help with the memory stuff( I drove to the wrong store)
But plus side..I am able to be still long enough to meditate now. I'm getting up later in the morning instead of 2am. I'm taking showers :) ( that's important)
just some trouble falling asleep, but I am enjoying the peace in my mind. And how I don't feel like I'm gonna scream all the time and turn into the Hulk. when I think really hard, there are no "crazy" thoughts or feelings anymore.
doc told me, no soy, no seaweed, no cruciferous veggies, no walnuts, no caffeine. gonna miss the coffee :) just got Cafe Du Monde, and Turkish Coffee and the little pot and cup lol. That's ok, I can give it to the guys :)
I like the sky above me cause it feels like it's giving me a hug and encouragement. And the earth is like someplace safe to cuddle up to. And being in a desert, I love having good water to drink that doesn't taste like a pond. And i like citronella because it keeps the cats off my cooking surfaces :)
yeah< i am dorky calm, but it's a good thing :)