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Old 07-19-15, 09:43 PM   #1
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I see how wound up I was before the small mania. And it took my son getting put in the hospital and me losing control and not being able to help to give me the nudge into the hostile aggressive mania. And dealing with two sons gong through major depression. But now I'm getting used to the lithium still, things are much calmer.at first I was super sleepy, and still walking around stores buying things for the house, fixing things, taking apart appliances and give them a serious cleaning. So I talk to the psychiatrist, because I was worried about all the money I was spending on my projects. He suggested a bump up in the lithium. It didn't really help. still insomnia, still waking up at 2 to clean the house, and just not stopping. I painted the living room windows( just 2) cause I was positive people were looking in. And huge mental fog, huge fast weight gain. My regular doc checked my levels, the lithium was 1.2 and thyroid was 7.3. So we took the lithium down and notch and I started Synthroid, for my thyroid. So it's supposed to take 2-4 weeks to have an effect. Doc says it should help with the memory stuff( I drove to the wrong store)
But plus side..I am able to be still long enough to meditate now. I'm getting up later in the morning instead of 2am. I'm taking showers :) ( that's important)
just some trouble falling asleep, but I am enjoying the peace in my mind. And how I don't feel like I'm gonna scream all the time and turn into the Hulk. when I think really hard, there are no "crazy" thoughts or feelings anymore.
doc told me, no soy, no seaweed, no cruciferous veggies, no walnuts, no caffeine. gonna miss the coffee :) just got Cafe Du Monde, and Turkish Coffee and the little pot and cup lol. That's ok, I can give it to the guys :)
I like the sky above me cause it feels like it's giving me a hug and encouragement. And the earth is like someplace safe to cuddle up to. And being in a desert, I love having good water to drink that doesn't taste like a pond. And i like citronella because it keeps the cats off my cooking surfaces :)
yeah< i am dorky calm, but it's a good thing :)
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Old 07-25-15, 07:48 AM   #2
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Glad that you are calm tess :)
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Old 07-28-15, 09:53 PM   #3
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:) thank you :) I think I am so close to normal now. ( me normal not like ..whatever normal ) I am going to the places I planned, not ending up at the wrong places. And I can concentrate. I am almost ready to start reading about stuff that interests me. And my memory is coming back. when people ask me stuff I can recall a lot more and I can even say it without forgetting words. And found a medicine-free insomnia buster. people have told me " white noise" and I was resistant. because we had a white noise alarm clock once. every morning it was seagulls screeching and ocean sounds. And we already lived on an island! it drove me nuts!
It's really hot here, like 110 the other day. So I got this big box fan for $20. Just to stay cool. but it sounds like being in an airplane and I always sleep on plane rides. Thing knocks me out in 20 minutes and I sleep through the night. Freaking awesome! So excited about it I wanted all the kids to have one, but they aren't insomniacs. Love the fan!
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Hi there- that's really cool you've tackled the insomnia thing :=] It is a weird one- I can't sleep unless there's some noise going on- traffic noise, that sort of thing. I also find the sound of people talking really sleep inducing. Sorry, that sounds silly :=] Hope you know what I mean.
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Old 07-28-15, 10:39 PM   #5
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yes I do! I used to fall asleep during history lectures all the time ;) No, seriously though, if I take a break and lie down on the couch, the xbox going, the family talking, I get very drowsy and sometimes drift off for a few minutes. Maybe it's just family voices are soothing. And they are loud too, you'd think no one could sleep through it :)
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