I can't help you with that but I'll say this and perhaps it'll be comforting in some way:
I used to be afraid of working, thought I could never do it, especially after major depression with psychotic features that really should have killed me but just 3 years later, I've got a decent amount of work experience and I'm getting praised left and right, getting promoted multiple times in the span of just a few months. I even had issues with imposter syndrome last summer because I was getting so much more praise than I could handle. Hell, it's even in the restauration business, notorious for the pressure and I excel at it despite my anxiety issues.
Oddly enough, it changed from a source of stress to a coping mechanism, when I'm there, I don't think about a lot of the crap that's in my head and I get a lot of validation from it. I also get income from it that goes straight to the bank so I don't have to worry about money if/when shit happens.
It could happen to you too; it might require a bit of experimentation to find something that fits you but work can be quite rewarding if you put yourself into it. Most important thing is to take pride in what you do.