I got together with Luke in October of 2009. For the first few months, I thought he was the best boy I'd ever found. I was 14 at the time. But still, I was positive I knew what love was, and I was even more positive I was in love with him. He was 16, he could drive, he was the best basketball player in his team, and he was 'hot.' He was also a sweetheart. He took me out to dinner all the time, wrote me cute love letters and used to send me a good morning and good night text every night without fail. I was the envy of every girl..
But then things turned bad.
I couldn't even talk to another guy without him going crazy. He'd shout at me and call me.. horrible names I won't write on here. He did it all the time.
A few times, he also physically abused me by pushing me against a wall, and pushing me off him, which caused me to fall over pretty hard..
I developed serious depression and anxiety. I'm pretty sure it was from him. With that, I also got extremely bad confidence problems.
One day, we had to catch a bus for an hour to get to our nearest beach. Just as we were about to get on the bus home, I saw him look at a girl with a very nice body with a bikini on, and burst out into tears.
He had a go at me for 10 minutes on the bus (very loud yelling, and it was a very busy bus). Then he got off the bus and left me.. alone. And I didn't know how to get home. Some strange 40 year old man came and sat next to me, helped me and let me cry on his shoulder, God bless that man!
Anyway, after putting up with this for 9 months, I got the courage to leave him. I immediately turned to my best friend (who was a guy) for help. I eventually started to like him too, and we've now been together 10 months, very happily. But all this time, we've had to keep it silent because Luke kept telling me 'if I ever moved on he'd kill himself.'
... Well, I just found out that this whole time, he's been lying to me anyway! He was sleeping with another girl, while he was still trying to get me back. .. He even attempted to rape me while he was sleeping with the other girl and I had a new boyfriend.
And he's now refusing to talk to me and cut off every bit of contact I have to him. The girl he was sleeping with found out about all this and stopped seeing him, and I am now friends with her. Luke apparently told her I have a bad body and 'really small boobs.' And apparently he was going to cheat on me while he was with me. But they could be rumours, I'm not sure if I want to believe it.
Today, I also went into his work with my boyfriend.. My boyfriend did not even look at him. And next thing I know, Lukes manager came up to my boyfriend and told him he was banned from the store for harassing Luke, then threatened him and told him to get out. Even though my boyfriend never did anything.. Luke made it up to get my new boyfriend in trouble, because he's jealous. We may even end up taking this to court.
My depression was starting to get better, but that set it off again.
My confidence is back to how it was, my depression is now bad all over again. Even with an amazing boyfriend that loves me so much,
I feel ugly and worthless. I have other problems in my life right now such as having a very sick mother and dealing with a brother that's just tried to commit suicide, and now all this on top of everything else is just starting to get too much.
I have no confidence anymore. I just want to give up on everything. I'm only 16 and he's already messed with me for life. I don't know what to do