silverneon

I'm a 25 year old female. I have no job but I go to college. I still live at home with my parents. All my life I've dealt with family problems. My father is an alcoholic. He's drank ever since I could remember. When he dranks he becomes out of control. He's hit my mom a number of times. He used to beat me all the time but that's since stopped (since I turned 18). He's still very abusive to me. I get called names all the time and he always puts me down (my mother included). He's always accusing of my mom of having a boyfriend (my mom has never cheated or has even thought about it) and talking to other guys. She can't go anywhere in public with him for the fear that he'll do something. For whatever reason my mom won't leave him. She used to tell me that she would be she hasn't. I feel like I'm trapped in this house. I have trouble sleeping and I've been having anxiety problems. I try and talk to my mom about things but she won't listen. I think a part of her thinks that if she leaves he'll come after her or something. I really want to just run away and leave everything behind. I have no friends who I can stay with. My dads anger usually gets the best of him. He's broken things, thrown things, constantly yells at my mom and I etc etc etc. I have no idea what to do. No matter what I do I can't convince my mom to leave him. I have very little money. I've been thinking of packing a few things and running away. I don't know what I'll do where ever I go. I just know that it will be better than where I'm living now. I don't want to leave my house (or my mom) but I feel like I don't have any other choice. I'm not suicidal or anything. It just sometimes I wish I could put my life on freeze for the time being and not have to deal with anything. I have tried to get help for my dad but he won't listen. My mom tells me that everything is "all in my head" and she shuts me out. I hate feeling sad and upset. I would really like to go to therapy and talk about the things I feel but I have no insurance or money to pay for it. Please give me advice on what the best way is to handle my situation. And I apologize for any typing errors or if things don't make sense. I'm very upset right now and it's hard to concentrate.

Sataria

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My heart goes out to you. Your situation sounds awful.

You say you go to college- is there someone there who could help you? Do they have a counselling service for students? Do you have a regular doctor you go to? They may be able to suggest something in the way of services in your area.

It sounds like you have to put up with so much. You really are such a strong person. ((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

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In your phone book is a domestic abuse hotline. They will provide emergency help for you and assist you in finding safer living conditions. NO ONE has to live with abuse. Please keep posting and let us know how you are.

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silverneon

Thanks to those who responded. My name is Heather btw. I have places that I myself could stay at but I can't leave my mom behind. I want to leave so bad but I can't. How can I convince her that this life she is living isn't good for her? I've done many searches on Google and research on "signs that you are a victim of abuse" to prove to her that what my dad does is wrong but she completely ignores me. She used to tell me when I was little that when she got a better job and was able to provide for my brother and I then she would leave him. She can provide for herself if she needed to but she chooses to stay put. For whatever reason she will not stand up to anything. I can usually talk to her about anything but once I bring up this subject she closes me out. I've told her that I would quit school for the time being and go back to working full time just to help her out.

hydiidepressio

Its really nice that you want to help your mum but i truly feel you need to be selfish and help yourself. You need to get out as soon as possible, get the help you need then you will be in a better position to help your mother.
Also you are an adult now so your mother isnt staying just for the childrens sake like some do, she has her choices.
Sorry i dont want you to think im judging ,im trying to get you to see how you can help both your mother and yourself. I was abused by my ex husband so i know the beast of the situation.